Category: Needles


The one thing IVF does is rid you of all modesty…and shame.  First the constant shoving of probes and tubes up your vagina.  Jesus…every week they say we need to do an ultra sound to check on progress.  Silly me thought, oh like if there was a baby in there.  Nurse Red, not that kind, the kind that goes in your vagina. Now when I hear ultrasound, I think… “I am going to insert this probe into your vagina again, and because I do this so often, I am going to stop being gentle, and shove it in.”  I wasn’t modest before, but now the drop your pants, scoot your butt down to the end of the table and spread them dance has become common place. So I look forward to my check up appointment on Friday for my 4th ultrasound since this process started.  However the great news is Follistim begins on Saturday!!  Grow follicles Grow! 

Back to the point of this entry, I have been on Lurpon now for 5 days.  I still hesitate before I stick the needle into my belly.  I get nervous and then I will usually prick myself, bleed, say “oh shit,” and then re-stick the needle in properly. Today I have an early work event.  I had to be at work ready to go at 6 am.  6 am is early, but I think it’s better than working the streets at 10 pm like I was as a family therapist in foster care.

Here in lies the problem, I take my shot at 7 am, everyday and I am very adamant about taking the shot at the same time.  So today when I packed my lunch I packed a prefilled needle with 20 units of Lupron.  I also packed my little drug baggy with baby aspirin, ½ tabs of dexamethasone and pre-natal vitamin to take at 7 am.  Today I worked with all men, thank goodness because they do not suspect anything when you take your lunch box with you to the bathroom at 7 am. So I go to the nasty, smelly, bathroom and pull out my pre-filled Lupron that made it safely to work in one piece (to be extra cautious I put an ice pack in my lunch since Lupron is kept in the fridge.)

So, at this point, things are still going smooth and I am still a Happy IVF Girl.  Hopefully we keep it that way.

I got my box of meds yesterday and was totally overwhelmed! I looked at this box and thought I need to retake my injection class. There were so many needles and medications, I was totally confused! Last night I sat down and laid everything out. I actually read al instructions to the medications. Sadly, this is probably the first time I have ever done this. I feel more comfortable now, and really sorted the box. I am ready for every shot except that progesterone, DANG that needle is really big and very scary. Does it have to be so big, really? Let me know if you have any tips for making it easier.

I still can’t believe that it is here, we have been planning this since January, so I cannot believe how fast this has gone. I am very hopeful and staying that way. Since my cousins passing, I have started getting back on track. I am trying to go to bed at 9:30 every night. I am staying relaxed and slowly re-introducing tasks into my daily life. Still going to acupuncture once a week, and getting a massage every week. Staying clear of processed foods and just being healthy.

Daily Shout-Outs

@jesanholi hoping for a BFP in 10 days!

@VeeNora Hoping those eggs mature! Good Luck on your 3 day transfer!

@FertilityChick Hoping the adoption goes smoothly!

Also please pray for my SIL that is pregnant, she is experiencing bleeding and cramping, so please send out some prayers and positive thoughts her way.

Hoping everyone who is having blood draws this week gets their BFPs, and those who are in the 2ww and have found out they are pregnant, I pray that you all have a peace of mind.

Happy National Infertility Week