Category: IVF appointments

I am still feeling bloated, but I am not feeling pain, but I do feel achy all over my body.  I have been taking it very easy.  I slept pretty much the entire day of ER and the day after I went to work and came home early.  I was slightly over stimulated and was told to take it easy.  But things today are much better and ET is scheduled for Monday Morning. 

My acupuncturist was really upset because she wanted me to come in before and Dr. T was not keen on changing his time. So today we did electro stimulation and it was weird.  The needles were vibrating and I could feel the pulsing.  It’s bizarre.  Although I did feel better after I went to acupuncture.

Also since my Estrogen test came back high, they added another form of progesterone.  They want to make sure they balance each other out.  So I am on the wonderful vaginal suppositories and injecting PIO.  And SERIOUSLY! There isn’t a better way to get progesterone than this thick oil with the biggest needle being shoved in my @$$! At first it did not hurt at all. Then all of a sudden 3 hours later it was so sore, and it’s sore now!  So not only am I walking funny due to my discomfort but now I try to sit directly on it so I do not bother my bum!

The Huz is still hurting pretty bad.  They basically had to cut his testicle and open it entirely to find sperm.  They went very deep to look for sperm, because initially they could not find any!  So the doctor was a little bit worried, but then they were able to find some.  That is why they injected 26 eggs, just trying to get any sperm they could.  We will know the final count on Sunday!  Then we will transfer 2 5-day blasts.

I think to calm my nerves I will probably stay off the internet for the two week wait.  I will update via blog, but I will let you know the results for sure though.  So I will probably write one more blog on Sunday and then be out of commission for two weeks.  Anyway, that’s for all the support.  Love you all!

Have a great day!

Give up, Give in, or Give It All You’ve Got

Today was an almost disaster! 

 I’m in Chicago for work this weekend.  Today I had to have a blood draw to recheck my estrogen levels, since next week is ER.  If we miss this appointment they cancel our cycle.  Plus I have over 30 follicles so they wanted to make sure my estrogen was not super high.  I set up this appointment 3 weeks ago with Quest Diagnostics.  I told them it was a STAT test, and Dr. T needed the results no later than 2 pm.  They said it was no problem and they could do it.

 My conference started at 9 am this morning, I went to get my blood draw at 7 am, thinking I have plenty of time.  When I got there, I went over what they needed to do again and the receptionist looks and me and says we can’t do that.  I said, “Yes you can.”
 I cleared al l this 3 weeks ago.  She made a call, and then I hear her saying, “Oh yeah, we can do this, just not on Saturday.”  I GAVE HER THE WTF LOOK!  As she looks at me like sorry and begins to get off the phone. Then I say, “Ask them what my other options are!”   I was furious, a little scared, but there was no way I was not going to get this blood drawn.  I am thinking, all this money, time, effort and positivity, this is not F&^#ing ending today!  I told her that SHE NEEDS to find a lab that draws on Saturday, and she says, “I don’t know any.”  I said yes you do! It’s called a hospital, get on the phone and start calling!  I had her look up all the different hospitals in the area, and we both began calling.  I did not give a flying F%$^ who was waiting in the waiting area.  They were all going to have to sit their @$$es there and wait!

After calling numerous hospitals, Evanston Hospital right outside Chicago is partner with an IVF clinic and did the rapid Estradiol test and would page my doctor.  I almost cried!  They were so sweet, so nice, and so understanding.  They just simply said, “come on in, we’ll get it done.”  

So I was an hour late for my conference, but test was done.  Estrogen only rose a little bit.  Still on only 50 units of Follistim (which I did not bother to even go to a restroom to take tonight, I ate at a restaurant alone, and used the table cloth as a shield), and ER will be Wednesday which I am happy about because I am super uncomfortable!   I usually never get upset, but understandably I let out a few choice words.

Anyway, here is to hoping everyone’s night is amazing!

Before this whole experience I had an intense fear of needles.  I never looked when people drew my blood.  I would always have to take the time to mentally prepare myself if I was going to get a shot.  I remember my very first acupuncture appointment (back when I was going for asthma) and it was terrifying! I was in so much pain because I could not loosen up my muscles.  I was so scared.  Now needles have become second nature.  I still hesitate when I am taking my morning shot.  But it has become less stressful.  I am going to acupuncture twice a week right now.   I am also going to a chiropractor once a week to help with aligning my hips and all that good stuff.  I do not want to even know what the total cost of all of this will amount too.   This whole process is so expensive and we are over the $10,000 mark.  However we have paid for a lot of our treatments up front, and the only payment left is for ICSI.

I had my sonogram check up today, everything looks good.  I had a little fluid in the endometrial cavity, but that was my period coming to an end. Then I had the weekly blood draw, which I am keeping count of tubes of blood and I am now up to 13.  

I am still excited and very hopefully.  My mom and mom in law are both having a very hard time containing their excitement, especailly since there are only 8 total people who know about our relaitonship with IVF.  So we are all still on team hope.  Dr. T seems very optimistic too.  He said that my ovary functioning test was very high so we should get some really good eggs. The Huz is doing his part too.  He just finished up his antibiotics, and has been eating so healthy it really puts me to shame. He wants his swimmers to be in tip top shape.  He is so supportive and feels guilty about all the shots I have to take, which is very sweet.  Also, The Huz is a man that never dreams, and he told me that he had a dream he was playing with our baby’s curly hair last night.  Precious! 

Anyway, I just wanted to check in.  Also to any military spouse’s Happy Military Spouse Appreciation Day.  I too am an Army wife, and its nice to be recognized!  The Huz has had 2 deployments to Iraq and I am the FRG lead so we know how tough it really is!

Have a positive IVF day!

Daily Shout Outs:

@VeeNora hoping next week your receive you BFP!

@IVFjess praying for you to have peace.  Also praying for positive news!

@Ashann7 hoping you have a wonderful transfer and for lots of stickiness!

@fertilitychick that the adoption process goes smoothly, as a person who conducts home studies, I know the hurry up and wait game is very tiring!

@babywishes25 that everything will go perfect in your IVF! Only positive thoughts to you!

12 days, just 12 more days till the first shot begins. I just got really excited, nervous, and anxious all at the same time!  I just can’t believe that after all these months we are finally here, and in a 7 short weeks I could potentially be pregnant (at my clinic they would make me take out the potential because it infers doubt.)

 I have two infertility nurses that I work with, I will call one Red due to the color of her hair, and the other Boss, because she is the one that bosses me around and tells me what I have to get done or my cycle will be cancelled.

Red called this morning to let me know that all my medications have been ordered.  I will pick up the Oral Medication today from my local CVS and the other items are coming from the Walgreens Specialty Pharmacy in the mail.  I think I got lucky all my medications will be around $2200 when everything is said and done.  My insurance did cover a large portion of it. 

So here is the game plan:

ART class was on March 30th, Red taught this class, she also taught the injections class that was held a month prior, I really like her, she is warm, kind and willing to answer any questions.  She has been an infertility nurse for about 9 years.

 Instructions after ART class- begin taking baby aspirin in the AM and take pre-natal vitamin and DHA everyday anytime.

For babywishes25 and IVF Jess I talked to her this morning about how long I would be on baby aspirin, and she told me my entire pregnancy.  She said get a big bottle, make sure it is not over 81mg, and plan on taking it every morning.

First day of my menstrual cycle was: April 3

Begin Birth Control Pills: April 3

Last dose of BCP: April 28

 I have not been on birth control in about 1.5 years, so the major side effect I experience is extremely tender and swelling breast.  I have already gone up one full size, if this is any indication of what my symptoms will be with pregnancy, I am going to have some big boobs.  Side effects are different for everyone.

April 14-Sonohysterogram and saline ultrasound aka Test Run for Transfer Day (if there was an obstruction i.e. fibroids, closed cervix, etc) they would re-evaluate if you would be able to continue in this cycle or would have to wait till the next cycle so they can clear the obstruction.

April 15– Lab Draw (9 freaking tubes)

April 29 – May 5 – the Huz will be on Doxycycline (this is a precaution to ensure his body is free of any infection.)

April 29 – May 7 – I will take Lupron and Dexamethasone (which I had NO idea what dexamethasone was, and I am still not sure.  I looked it up on and this was the description: Dexamethasone is used to treat conditions such as arthritis, blood/hormone/immune system disorders, allergic reactions, certain skin and eye conditions, breathing problems, certain bowel disorders, and certain cancers. It is also used as a test for an adrenal gland disorder.

This medication is a corticosteroid hormone. It decreases your natural defensive response and reduces symptoms such as swelling and allergic-type reactions. )

I will blog about why I think they have me on this after I talk with the doctor some more this afternoon.

May 8 – 12- add Follistim to the mix, and experience your ovaries grow from the size of Walnuts to Softballs!  Yes, Softballs. At this point you are no longer allowed to exercise.   Due to the risk of your ovary turning over which may cut off blood supply and will result in emergency surgery and possible ovary removal.  Additionally, you are no longer allowed to pick up anything over 10 lbs (I think they were trying to scare me on purpose.)

 Sonograms scheduled for May, 13, 16 and 17

Last blood draw on May 14 to check progress, I am actually out-of-town and had to find a Lab that was willing to page my Doc the results that day.  Boss said if I did not get that in, my cycle would be cancelled! So I had that taken care of immediately!

Possible retrieval days May 18, 19, or 20

Transfer day is typically on the 5th day, some may be on the 6th depending on the development of the blast.  All transfer must be done by the 6th day due to the nutritional changes the embryo will need.  

 At my appointment on May 13, I will receive my last lab draw form and my last calendar but first Beta test should be around June 2nd.

This is the game plan thus far; I will update you all as the day’s progress.  I am excited to be so close!

Today, I found out I was special.  I had my first doctor appointment of the IVF process.  I am still on the BCP and will continue to take them the rest of the month as my shots do not start until April 29th.  Today was my Sonohysterogram, saline ultrasound (test run to make sure there are no possible fibroids or obstructions that could prevent egg transfer.)  So, I go into the bathroom, remove the necessary clothing and walk out in my see-thru sheet.  I guess it doesn’t matter how thin the sheet is when they are about to go down under anyway (modesty is not a luxury for childbirth and IVF totally prepares you for that.)

So the lady nurse goes down under, and starts the vaginal ultrasound.  She then goes, “Woah, that’s neat.”  I am thinking, what is there a baby in there already! (A girl can dream)

Then the conversation proceeds as follows:

Nurse: You have a retroverted uterus!
Me: I got a… what?
Nurse: Your uterus is backwards! It’s pretty rare.
Me: Is that a bad thing, will that affect pregnancy?
Nurse: Not at all its just rare and unique, it’s like being left handed.
Me: So…Does that make me…Special?
Nurse: Absolutely!

So that was my feel-good special moment of the day, my uterus is backwards!  Who would have thunk it? Other than that, all systems look good.  No abundance of cysts, just the normal amount, and the catheter went in just fine (although I wish he could have been a little bit more gentle when testing it out) as of right now everyone is pretty hopeful.  The worst part of this trial run was standing up only to let saline hit the floor, and my legs, thank goodness the nurse moved my shoes.  So there is nothing left to do but be hopeful, stay positive, reduce stress, and wish for the best!

Lots of baby dust to you as well!

Today was the beginning of my secret life. I now understand how difficult it was for Clark Kent, to keep his secret from others.

The Huz and I decided two things when we started IVF. We would only tell a select few people in our family and I would leave my job for another or just quit due to the high amounts of stress. We decided this for many reasons. Our first reason was that we did not want everyone to know that we were going through IVF. When everyone knows they begin rooting for you and start building up enormous amounts of hope. Not that we are not hopeful, but our friends and family will constantly ask how the process is going, do we need anything, and God forbid if it does not work on the first try, not only will we be crushed but they will as well (both families are HUGE and involved and we both have a large social circle.) Therefore, we keep it between us and the few, (when I say few I mean 6 other people) and then if it turns out that it does not work, only the 8 of us will be sadden, and we spear everyone else from heartache. Luckily, the Huz and I have an extremely close relationship, and have been constant uplifting supports for each other.

Also, the less people who know, the less stress I will endure. What I have gathered from following blogs, tweets and other online forums, it seems that the less stress you put on yourself the more successful. I was a researcher in graduate school, and because of that I always OVER research and OVER plan everything! So I did not treat IVF any different, and the commonality regardless of food changes, drink changes, and medication changes, the most successful IVFs were when the couple was the least worried about success, and had the least amount of stress. Of course it is difficult not to stress, for goodness sake, you are stabbing yourself multiple times a day, taking oral medication, in a constant reminder that I have to do this to have a child. So to say not to stress is difficult, but what we can do is try to reduce the stress around us and try to put as much humor into IVF as possible.

Luckily I have just left the most stressful job in the world, for a job with a considerable pay increase and less that 1/64 of the stress. So I am lucky, but I knew I had to get out of my last job becuase it was changing my personality for the worst.

This leads me to my now double life! Today was the first appointment of a series of appointments that I will have over the next couples of months. I will write about this particular appointment after this. So I have now put on my work calendar these various appointments and listed them as random Dentist, Dermatologist, and Doctor Appointments.

I started this job over a month ago, so if I do get pregnant it wont look like I got a job and instantly got pregnant, however I do have to conjure up some excuses for the egg retrieval day and the transfer days…So, I am thinking, my diagnosis will be Diarrhea! Diarrhea is always a GREAT reason to stay home. Fortunately I have the capability to be able to connect to the server and work from home. However the two days I need pure rest, I have been diagnosed with chronic diarrhea! No one wants to be around someone who is constantly on the toilet, I mean you start to wonder, did they wash their hands? Did their poop splatter everywhere? Did they touch anything? Do they smell like poop? What did they eat? No one wants someone with chronic diarrhea around them, because you start to believe all you smell is poop! So I have time bank for the actual retrieval day and I will have Diarrhea so chronic I cannot leave my house for 3 days, which will just so happen to coincide with transfer day.

Call me Clark Kent.